Hi Consentus,
Firstly i want to say wasn't too sure where to put this so i'll put it here, Mods or whoever can change/delete may do so if you feel this isn't appropriate. Many of you don't know me but this is for the few who were ex-Hopefull or have talked to me within the Consentus chat or talked to me in-game.
ot sure how to start this off but i'll get straight to the point. For my new years resolution i want to go back to what i used to be last year, a kind caring person who often offered advice and was an easy person to talk about issues with. During the year of 2012 i'm not sure what happened but i lost my traits that i used to posses, people telling me i was their role model made me really proud and i miss these times so much.
I want to apologize to everyone who i have offended, Whether it was directly calling you something or saying something that affected your personally or through friends or family. Quite often when i get tired i blabber on about things without thinking about them and it's not until i think about what i have said i relise how badly it could of hurt someone. From something like talking about the ethnicity of a man/woman to discussing where somebody lives i know how personally these things can be taken.
I also want to say sorry for how immature I've become. 'back in the day' i was one of the most sensible players on throughout my time zones and often tried to keep topics mature in the Friend Chat and Clan Chat, now i am often the one to start or carry these on and i want to refer to the paragraph above, i'm deeply sorry if any of these gestures offended you or your cultures in any way. Talking about something as simple as body parts can cause deppresion and uncertainty within people and i apologize for all the inappropriate things i have said, I really wish i could go back in time.
Thirdly, I really want to improve my grammar and typing skills. It makes me look like an untidy and low educated being in real life and i don't want to be that kind of person in people's minds. In late 2011 when i first received a spot in this clan i would remember trying to type the best i could so i was respected, Nowadays i'm a mess nearly every sentence has at least one typo in it and people are starting to frown at me thinking 'what is that guy up too?' I would appreciate it if i'm miss-spelling a word often for you too correct me, but saying this i don't want people being grammar freaks about everything i type either thanks.
Another thing i want to work on is my friendship with everyone in the Friends Chat and Clan, I'm sure many of you are too shy to talk to me because you think i'll say something rude towards you or ignore you for that matter. I want to become someone you can all talk too and we can get too know each other better, From now on don't be afraid to say hi in-game or even flick me a pm every once in again it would be awesome to get to know some of you on a better level.
Also, My lack of leadership has deteriorated hugely since 'back in the day'. I used to be alongside fellow staff in organizing events and hosting get togethers for the Friends chat and Clan. I'm going to look at starting up the weekly peng event again, Or maybe something like Skilloz did where we have a weekly skilling event where the clan joins together and bank skills or fishes, or anything. If you have any more idea's you'd like to suggest feel free to talk to me in-game or via forums.
I joined this clan on the 9th of August 2011 and had previously hung in the Friends chat for a month or so prior, After creating my skiller I obtained 99 Cooking and soon after went on a journey trying to find more people like me (A Skiller) after hearing about the clan via youtube i was stuck with my new family forever. It was on the 23rd of October 2011 i was asked by Haw Rizzo (Now Hopeful) too become a moderator in the chat and it brought tears to my eyes (Quite literally) too know that the current admins ( Erin and Scott ) along with the fellow staff felt i was able enough for the staff team and too take care of the Friends Chat. It was a few months later when i was demoted by Jack, a man we all love . This was one of the saddest days i have had in my Runescape career. To know that i wasn't doing my job right made me feel bad, I know it's pathetic to some that i was sad over a video game but i cared so much for you guys and to know i had let you down was a disappointment for me. I don't have the date written down, But a period of time after this i was asked to rejoin the staff by Austin and Chloe. This came up close to the first time in excitement. To know i had earned my respect and reliability in the Friends Chat and Clan made me feel good about my self. As many as you know, I was recently demoted once again. I'm sure many of you were happy i was stripped of my rank as i had become one of the most silly people in the chats and many people think of me as a Sword.
I hope you guys can forgive me, I want to go back to what i used to be and i hope you can help me on my way. If i have ever hurt you or your friends in-game feel free to pm me and i will apologize too you personally. Sorry i couldn't cover everything but i can assure you i'm full of regrets of what i have become lately, So i'd like to throw in one more apology if it's not listed above that i am truly sorry for what i have done to you, whether it was directly at you or affected you via other people.Thanks everyone for your support and gratitude in advance, It means a lot.